words mean things

get it out
all of it
cough
spit
are you okay?
i don't care
i'm just being polite
for appearances sake.
just because i know
right from wrong
doesn't mean
i buy into choosing right.
when i do
it is only because
i am selfish
and think always
of myself;
what i can gain
by my choices
on those rare occasions
when i actually make choices.
words mean things
and so i bite off the clips
then toss grenades
hoping the shrapnel
of so many words
that mean nothing
may amount to something
not because i care
but because i know
you do
and i kind of figure
i should throw you a bone
every now and then
to get what i want
somewhere down the road.
words mean things
so i despise hearing them
i stare at lips
instead
are you lipless
untrustworthy?
do you speak with your hands
to further obfuscate
meaning?
do you spit
as you speak?
should i mention
you are now
spitting at my face
in your excitement
to get across
your meaningless ideas
through your lipless mouth
giving thanks
to me
for saving you.
should i mention
it was really nothing;
it was really nothing
you wouldn't have done yourself
if the tables were turned?
words mean things
and so i am a liar....